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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Waiting Room!!!

(Inspired by the latest blog by Thinking and my daily experience. @Thinking - My apologies if I misused your tone of saying here!)

I travel to office daily by AC Volvo city bus which has no reservation of front rows for ladies(usually done in ordinary buses). Which means I can occupy the seats at the front of the bus.

I wasn't suppose to sit there even then.. as many ladies prefer and usually occupy those seats.. but I did..hmmm..

I wasn't suppose to be near women that close....

The promise I made to myself long back, to avoid girls to keep me safe from the Temptations of the adolescence and not to get close to any girl until I able to make one mine for life(get married)

I knew the best way to avoid girls it stay away from them and not to depend on them for any thing.

But here I'm sitting very close to these beautiful young women.

I wanted to make friends with one of them, get indulge with her but I shouldn't. The best way to keep myself off of these temptations was to be close to them and don't talk to them.

And I'm fully surrounded by these beautiful young women wearing attractive dresses and scents that mesmerizes and for a moment takes your subconscious to the room lit with fragrance candles and a bed covered with rose petals and other colorful scented flowers. On the bed, a lady in red attire, I don't know who she is? All I see is her sitting with her one leg folded to her chest, head bent with shyness and covered with the translucent, shiny veil till the nose. I could see her lips trembled with fear, yet a shy smile on her rosy cheek. I couldn't help myself from smiling at her....

"...TICKET TICKET.." shouted the conductor, which brought me back into my seat on bus.

The smile I gave was real and I could only realize that after I noticed a gorgeous women, scantily dressed, staring fiercely at me as if she would burn me with that look. I quickly turned my head towards the window and closed my eyes and cursed my temptations.

She didn't knew that I was lost in my world, but sure she thought that I was scaling her assets in detail which I hardly noticed.

I was deeply embarrassed for what happened which I did not mean to. All these years I had turned down every opportunity to make a girlfriend just to save my Fidelity for the one, with whom I'll be spending my rest of the life and thereafter. I had even avoided every pleasure of eye candies or the feeling of being touched. But this one moment nearly ruined all that I had acquired by being a pleasure renounced saint.

I spent the rest of my journey to office looking at the infinity across the window and re-vowing to myself to not sit in front rows anymore.
 
Thereafter, I preferred standing at the back of the bus though the seats were empty at the front.

I'm now the regular occupier of the corner window seat in the last row of the bus, where only the saints or losers like me give me company. 

When I'm tired and have no other options I would occupy the front row if the company I get is either of the below pictures.

















Here I'm back in the Waiting Room part of the life, Safe and Fidel with deliberate Patience and a Hope to find a companion of the life and its Journey to begin soon...!

11 comments:

Zee said...

i like your expression. i could feel the loneliness and emptiness inside you from every word. But hope remains my friend..as long as you live it does. and believe me one day you will be glad you waited, for it will not be in vain.:) goodluck

Thinking said...

hmm...

My dear friend...Dumberer...you gave me too much credit. Infact...the post is awesome.

I know...sometimes it is hard to resist specially when you have married all your friends or siblings...

And this is natural....

My exclamation after reading your post was :What a confession.....

but made in quite a delicate manner so I'm sure all the ladies (bus) if read this post will forgive you.

Be strong and be ready....be happy and dont waste too much time on findinig a perfect match...believe me...there is no one like PERFECT...

Well...your post though took long time to come up but it sure gave me reason to smile...

Good to see the world through your eyes...

Thanks Dumberer.

The Dumberer said...

@Zee - Thank you for understanding and wishes! :-)

@Thinking - Thanks for the appreciation, but the credit of yours is well deserved from my side at least as your writings were the ones which inspired me to start the blog. ;-)

Well.. The problem with me is that I'm not looking for a perfect match! The reason I'm holding myself is that I don't think I'm good enough. I'm so Dumb and I know I'll always be one. But I want my dumbness to be just bearable for my would-be other half!

Komal Khan said...

Although you have written this post with our Thinking's style but it retains the individuality of its own.

I like this line the most:
"But this one moment nearly ruined all that I had acquired by being a pleasure renounced saint."

This is actually true. Sometimes one embarrassing moment ruined your 'that kind of Image' in front of others. Then we think "Tabah hogaya saara sophisticated image".

The Dumberer said...

@Komal - Thanks for visiting the blog and sharing your views. Yeah sometimes even the remembrance of that incident pisses off the mood and makes one angry enough to crush the fist to a hardest substance available near! And I'm kinda use these kind of moments. :(

But wise people suggest, instead of getting wretched remembering the same old incidents, we should take the learning and move on. We should learn to laugh at our folly and be careful to not to repeat it or at least make new ones!!! ;-)

You have got nice blog with wise words to share, I'm already following you! ;-)

Thanks again.

Komal Khan said...

I am very bad at remembering the stupidity I did last time and normally do it again and again :D but yes with some changes ;-)

Anyways, thanks for sharing this, I enjoyed reading it.

And yes, thank you so much for your appreciation about my blog and for your following. I am honoured.

Take care :)

Mere Drizzle said...

purity of thOughts, innOcEnt cOnfessiOns, nd specially 'lady in rEd' ws awesome..
Ur pOst made me smiLe as Thinking's dOes :),
WD !

The Dumberer said...

@MERE DRIZZLE: Thank you very much for your appreciation n i'm honored to be having you as visitor! :-)
I found your profile to be blocked on privacy reasons n I have a guess that you must be the new follower of my blog - Rabeeta Warsi? pardon me if I'm wrong.
Also, please give me an opportunity to enjoy reading your writings too! ;-)

CATGIRL said...

hey Dumberer,,, they way u expressed urself. i almost thought it was a girl till i came to the lady in red part... i sooooo much admire ur way of choosing to keep away ur temptations..yeah it is difficult. and u hav owned my respect now dear fellow blogger !,,,
a li'l 'darker side" to the lady in red. would u like to read? and plzzz remove this word verification form. u wont get any spam till u hav over 1000 followers :PPPP
i m one now!!

http://relationships-catgirl.blogspot.com/p/what-went-wrong.html

Mere Drizzle said...

yEpp, Ur ryt..
nd m nOthing bUt a mere readEr, bUt whEnever.. wEll sOmeday... wn wryt, will lEt U knOw!
TC

Sarat said...

Amazingly put! Brilliantly conveyed. Kickass blog post. Reps!!

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